Waiting for that phone to ring up? Or a bunch of friends to walk in eh? You won't get a cake facial ,though you can always try that near by parlour. I know how you have always been grateful to God for blessing you with such a wonderful family and that you are not a bit of a pessimist. But this one day grips you like anything. All those nights spent by planning birthdays, getting everyone in the group to wake up at the right time and being there for a not so well planned surprise; it all comes back to haunt you this one day.
That strong you, the you who knows that there is more suffering and pain, more solitude and misery that you will ever imagine gives up on you on this one day! Why? Because somewhere deep down, you secretly wanted a little surprise waiting for you early in the morning, may be a lunch then or a long drive with that group which has been so special to you all this while. So you are selfish then right? Because you did something to get a reward outta it. Or are you just lonely, waiting for a call or a text, spending half the day in innocent expectation? You don't have to regret it, you know. It was just the love which never existed.
