There is this famous hindi saying, 'Bhagwan bhi unhi ki mada karte hai jo khud ki madad karein' ( God shall help those who help themseleves) .Fair enough. You cannot expect the almighty (I do believe in God) to shower his blessings on you just because you think you deserve or are in a need of it or you feel you need a 'push' by some supernatural power and then once on the right track you'll pick up the pace. Why should U be the chosen one and not one of those hundreds and thousands of people who are actually suffering but coping up with the miseries of life with a hope hole in their sinking heart that one day everything will be fine.
On the other hand there are people who keep on whinning about what went wrong and how everyhting is bound to go wrong and how the whole universe is conspiring to make the right thing go wrong for them. I am not into writing as to make someone understand anything or tell others what's the right thing to do. I am writing this for my own sake because since a few months I have been feeling the same, many a times intensely,rest may be vaguely but the emotion has been persistent. Lately, my friends (I have two three close ones) have been hinting at the fact that what person I am truning into. From the one who used to crack the worst of the jokes and still managed to heartily laugh to one who won't even smile at the sweetest of the gestures now. From a person who used to be friends with everyone to the isolated, lone dark story girl. May be that's their interpretation of what am becoming which is quite extreme and hopefully am still a positive person (Yes I am). But I can't deny the fact that last one year has been a topsy turvy one and at times I have brave and strong and also their have been moments of utter weakness which reflected in my behaviour towards them.
The purpose to share my personal experience on this public platform,at a time when I cannot claim am outta it is a sudden urge to express myself, a strong desire to feel light on the inside and which I figured out could be done if I talk about it.
There are a few learnings and mistakes which I want to specifically mention. If you ever went through a low phase you'd know how pissed off you feel all the time, friends trying to support or talk get on your nerves and you end up hurting them each time they try to help. Don't! Don't do that. Accepting that you are facing a bad time is the first step in getting out of it. Once this realisation dawns upon you, allow your close ones to talk to you. Ample of times only talking to a friend has got me out of never seeming to end darkness. Isn't it quite reasonable to come to terms to the fact that people you call your best friends will be there for you in your hard times and won't make a move to hurt rather than heal you? Keep your Common Sense Alive.
Do all that what you like. It is easier said than done but you can always give a try. I like doing a lot of things and like doing all of them very passionately. Dancing, playing with dogs, writing, reading, surfing the internet and reading more new, crazy stuff. I could not do just one thing rather I diversified and did all of them a bit, not particularly following a schedule for that but went with the flow. If it's a rainy day grab a cup of coffee to perfectly couple it with a book. Feel like slapping someone? Put on your shoes and dance to the tunes of wild music. Need someone to talk to? Dogs are the best! Trust me they are. Isn't it awesome to have someone who'll listen to you without complaining?
Last but not the least and I guess the most important learning. We suffer more in our imagination than in reality. Pondering on things excessively even though thy are of significance will pull you down into depths of despair and make you oblivion. And this is the worst you could do to yourself. No one thinks about you as much as you think they do. No. They don't. People have their own life to live, their own worries to take care of. So stop being sentimental all the time and stop being a sufferer.
PS : This am writing especially for a friend who thinks I have become hopeless and won't give a try at life. But I want to soooo tell you that am not giving up. Not now. I may not be very enthusiastic about the happenings as I used to be or as I should be but am hopeful in my own secret sense. So dont' be angry and keep faith. I'll get myself somewhere. :)
On the other hand there are people who keep on whinning about what went wrong and how everyhting is bound to go wrong and how the whole universe is conspiring to make the right thing go wrong for them. I am not into writing as to make someone understand anything or tell others what's the right thing to do. I am writing this for my own sake because since a few months I have been feeling the same, many a times intensely,rest may be vaguely but the emotion has been persistent. Lately, my friends (I have two three close ones) have been hinting at the fact that what person I am truning into. From the one who used to crack the worst of the jokes and still managed to heartily laugh to one who won't even smile at the sweetest of the gestures now. From a person who used to be friends with everyone to the isolated, lone dark story girl. May be that's their interpretation of what am becoming which is quite extreme and hopefully am still a positive person (Yes I am). But I can't deny the fact that last one year has been a topsy turvy one and at times I have brave and strong and also their have been moments of utter weakness which reflected in my behaviour towards them.
The purpose to share my personal experience on this public platform,at a time when I cannot claim am outta it is a sudden urge to express myself, a strong desire to feel light on the inside and which I figured out could be done if I talk about it.
There are a few learnings and mistakes which I want to specifically mention. If you ever went through a low phase you'd know how pissed off you feel all the time, friends trying to support or talk get on your nerves and you end up hurting them each time they try to help. Don't! Don't do that. Accepting that you are facing a bad time is the first step in getting out of it. Once this realisation dawns upon you, allow your close ones to talk to you. Ample of times only talking to a friend has got me out of never seeming to end darkness. Isn't it quite reasonable to come to terms to the fact that people you call your best friends will be there for you in your hard times and won't make a move to hurt rather than heal you? Keep your Common Sense Alive.
Do all that what you like. It is easier said than done but you can always give a try. I like doing a lot of things and like doing all of them very passionately. Dancing, playing with dogs, writing, reading, surfing the internet and reading more new, crazy stuff. I could not do just one thing rather I diversified and did all of them a bit, not particularly following a schedule for that but went with the flow. If it's a rainy day grab a cup of coffee to perfectly couple it with a book. Feel like slapping someone? Put on your shoes and dance to the tunes of wild music. Need someone to talk to? Dogs are the best! Trust me they are. Isn't it awesome to have someone who'll listen to you without complaining?
Last but not the least and I guess the most important learning. We suffer more in our imagination than in reality. Pondering on things excessively even though thy are of significance will pull you down into depths of despair and make you oblivion. And this is the worst you could do to yourself. No one thinks about you as much as you think they do. No. They don't. People have their own life to live, their own worries to take care of. So stop being sentimental all the time and stop being a sufferer.
PS : This am writing especially for a friend who thinks I have become hopeless and won't give a try at life. But I want to soooo tell you that am not giving up. Not now. I may not be very enthusiastic about the happenings as I used to be or as I should be but am hopeful in my own secret sense. So dont' be angry and keep faith. I'll get myself somewhere. :)
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